decision is better than no decision at all. I believe that in theory, but seldom practice it because, well, I think too much.
Anyway, God is bigger than my wandering thoughts, and for that I am very thankful. I've been thinking about my dad a lot lately, since his 5 year anniversary since his death is coming up in a few days on May 9th. I've tried to remember things that he told me over the years, advice that stands time and spans different situations. And sometimes I try to imagine what kind of advice he would give me for a particular situation, but even after knowing him my whole life, I still could never predict what he would say to me or how he would react and every time it would be something unexpected. So this is just a nostalgic, futile effort.
I do miss my dad immensely and I miss that he didn't get to see me grow up. I was 20 when he died on a motorcycle. But my heart soars, because one thing he taught all of us is that God is the only one who can raise a phoenix from the ashes... over and over... My heart soars because I am loved, I have love, I was taught love, I love, and I was loved. My heart soars because I refuse to stay on the ground watching everyone else fly above. My heart soars because life is a gift. My heart soars because my actions do not define me. My heart soars because it is it's nature. My heart soars because God gave me wings.
And I am thankful.