I was thinking about it the other day and talking it over with my mom
and I decided that society’s points of view suck. That goes for just
about every point of view that I can think of. Why are people so
stupid? Why doesn’t anybody think for themselves anymore? What
happened to individuality? And why does everyone get their panties in
a wad when someone decides to step up, say it like it is, and do
something completely different from the norm? What is the norm
anyway? And who decided to make it the norm? And who gave them the
authority to do that? Let’s go with the old catch phrase, “If
the whole world jumped off a cliff, would you do the same?” But
then people have to make it all complicated and ask silly things like
well, did they have a parachute? And, if the whole world does it,
then they must know something I don’t! Or even, will I die when I
land? NO! Stop it! Don’t complicate it! They jump off and DIE!
Because they are all idiots and didn’t think for themselves! Because
they asked those same stupid questions and believed someone else’s
answer!
ANYWAY…
Now that I’m done ranting, this is what I’m going to do about it!
Because what good does it do to complain if you don’t get off your
tush and move?! (another societal flaw… complacency) So, since I am
SO done with the “world”, “society”, “general
public”, “everybody else”, whatever you want to call
it, many outside views that are not my own, telling me what to do,
think, say, how to act, and what is acceptable or not, I have decided
to ignore it! And in the process, I am going to piss a lot of people
off! Namely those that I live with and the ones that have to deal
with me on a daily basis. Unless of course they feel the same way I
do and embrace the personal change. (Not really a change, just a
personal challenge to LIVE!)
You know what holds me back? What
keeps me from going forward? Fear. Yup, plain and simple. (Another
flaw imposed by society) Fear of being judged. Fear of being talked
about and rejected. Fear of people thinking bad about me. Fear of
people period. Fear of the unknown, of what could, “possibly”
happen. Fear of standing out. Fear of failure. Fear of everything!
Everyone wants their lives to go well, so most follow the set out
guidelines, right? But not everyone.I don’t want to be in that
category, “everyone”. I am me, Holly Michelle Baldridge
Guerrero. Me. Plain and simple. NO MORE FEAR. And that doesn’t mean
that I won’t still fear things, but from now on, I don’t want it to
hold me back!
I’m sure you have heard the song that says, “I
went skydiving, I went rocky mountain climbing…. And I loved deeper
and I spoke sweeter and I gave the forgiveness I’d been denying, And
I said someday I hope you get to live, to live like you were dying”
I’ve always listened to that song and loved it, but no! Why is life
like that? Why are people like that? Why does everyone wait until
they are dying to live? I know the song is trying to stress the fact
that you shouldn’t wait, and people agree with that idea, and sing
the song imagining themselves jummping out of an airplane, but what
happens when the song is over? Why can’t we learn from other’s
mistakes? Are we really that stupid as a species? I don’t want to get
to the end and think about all the mistakes I made and how I would
have lived differently. How do I want people to see me? How do I want
to be remembered? What legacy do I want to leave for my children and
family? Then you know what? That is exactly what I am going to do!
That is exactly how I am going to live!
Who tells me that I
can’t succeed? Who is holding me back from reaching my goals, my
ambitions? Who is stopping me from living in bold color? Who tells me
“no”? I am the only one who rains on my parade. I am the
one adhering to the standards or society. But I CAN do anything that
I put my mind to, and you know why? Because I have PASSION, I have
FIRE, I have DRIVE and DESIRE. For me things are black or white,
right or wrong, here or there, yes or no. There is no gray area, no
in between. Because society lays in between, society avoids the
extremes, and I gravitate toward them. If they can’t be put in one of
those categories, it needs to be discarded, plain and simple. We only
get one shot, so aim HIGH! Higher than you ever dreamed you could
reach and you know what will happen? You will get farther than you
thought you could go! Let’s be REAL, and not societies standards of
“real”…
The moral of the story?
Society
is stupid.
I
hold myself down.
That’s
all going to change.
Okay, I’m done!
